a heartless soul;;

[*~Leigh Hartman]

How could someone make such a bad judgement? Drinking is stupid..It makes people so mean, so different, so inhumane. To mix it with driving is so, unreal. No one should ever even think about doing that! It's just wrong, it's against the law, you get in trouble if you get caught, you could hurt someone!....Like my little brother who was taking his puppy for a walk..

Tears were streaming down the girl's face as she thought of her seven year old brother who was laying unconcious in a hospital bed at that very moment. It didn't seem fair that because of one man's poor decisions that her baby brother had to suffer..He hadn't done anything wrong..He had been begging for a puppy for such a long time that their mother had finally given in and gotten him one..So he had to take it on a walk of course, and then, out of no where, in broad day light, it happened.

She had been sitting on the frong porch with Samantha, the two of them were doing their homework outside so they could keep an eye on Xavier while he walked the puppy up and down the street. Suddenly Leigh had gotten a feeling in her stomach that something bad was going to happen, and within seconds the sound of brakes squealing were heard, and then a scream. The second her head snapped to the left to look at her brother she screamed.

Laying about ten feet away from the car was Xavier, covered in blood..His puppy, about 5 feet away from him was okay, but shaking and cowering pathetically. After ordering Samantha to call the police she had gone over to her little brother and sat next to him, running her fingers through his gold hair, and holding his puppy as she waited for the the ambulence to arive. It seemed like hours, althought it had only been minutes..She thought for sure her little brother was dead on the scene...But he hadn't been..And now he was fighting for his life in the county hospital.

Coming back to reality Leigh didn't even bother to try to wipe away the tears that seemed to be pour out of her blue eyes that were glittering with all the tears. Her face was pale, drained over color and she was shivering as she sat on the floor of the cheer gym in her short black shorts and dark blue tank top. Her red Nike shoes were sitting on the floor next to her, and her feet felt freezing, although she was wearing black no show socks. Her hair was a mess, she knew if her cheer coach saw her right now she could possibly be in trouble...But either way..

How could she even think of cheering right now...When her little brother was in the hospital...Possibly dying?

[Isabella Swan]

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

The song was stuck in Isabella's head as she walked into the cheer gym. She wanted to see what the cheerleaders would be practicing. Bella couldn't decide on whether or not to join them. She thought she might if they had a cool enough routine this year though.

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

Bella looked up and saw someone from her grade sitting on the floor of the gym. It looked like she was crying because she was shivering and her face was pale, drained of color and her hair was a mess . The girl was in short black shorts and dark blue tank top. She had red Nike shoes sitting on the floor next to her, and she was wearing black no show socks. Bella started to walk towards the girl when she realized it was Leigh. Bella started to run over to Leigh, her long blond hair flying behind her.

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

Bella knelt down next to Leigh and lifted her chin up so she was looking at her. Leigh was defiantly crying. "Leigh, what happened?" Bella asked Leigh in hopes to find the reason as to why she was crying. She didn't like it when someone she knew was crying. She didn't like it when people got hurt by something or someone.

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

OOC: sorry for the crappy post

[*~Leigh Hartman]

He'll be okay, this can't happen, my little brother can't die! The man who was driving the car should be the one in the hospital bed right now, fighting for his life! He's the one who made the bad decisions..He's the one that decided to drink and drive..He's the one that might possibly take Xavier's life! I hope he's hurting....I hope he regrets what he's done...I hope he knows that there is a family hurting more than its imaginable right now all because of him and his stupid decisions, I hope that he....

The sound of shoes pounding on the turf of the cheer gym floor brought Leigh back to reality and she opened her eyes, letting the tears continue to run down her face. She knew her make-up was smeared, that her eyes were red, that her face was streaked with tears, and that her hair was falling out of the messy bun that she had pulled it up into that morning, but she didn't care at that moment. She turned her head to see one of the girls from her grade; Isabella Swan.

The girl's blonde hair seemed perfect compaired to how messy Leigh knew hers was. Her make up seemed amazing to how smeared and messed up Leigh knew hers had to look at the moment. But for some reason these things didn't bother her at all at the moment. The only thing that was bothering her was the only thing she could think of...Xavier. She just didn't understand.

And as Isabella approached her and asked what was wrong all she could do was look away, refusing to make eye contact and whisper in a hoarse voice that you could tell from the sound that she was hurting, "I don't understand..."

[Isabella Swan]

Isabella saw the tears in Leigh's eyes before she turned her head away from her. She heard her hoarse voice as she said ,"I don't understand..." Bella had heard the hurt in Leigh's voice. Bella looked at Leigh and saw how her make-up had smeared and how her hair was a mess. She didn't like this image of Leigh. She was so used to seeing her so much happier.

Bella knew something happened at home. She just didn't know hat happened. Bella wrapped her arms around Leigh's shaking shoulders. She tried to comfort her as best as she could. She didn't like seeing people cry. Especially when it came to someone she knew.

After what seemed like hours but was really only fifteen or twenty minutes. Leigh's shoulders slowly stopped shaking. Bella unwrapped her arms from around Leigh's shoulders and looked at her. She knew she couldn't ask Leigh what happened without possibly making her cry again. So she didn't ask. She knew that Leigh would tell her what happened in her own time. So she sat there looking at Leigh, not with a questioning look but with a concerned look.

[*~Leigh Hartman]

Leigh knew it had to be weird, possibly a little bit awkward for Isabella to see her like this..She always managed to pull off a happy act during school and when she was around her family members..With the exception of two people; her two sisters, there were no people who knew the real her. Who knew the hurt and confused child that still remained in her heart day after day. She tried to hide her real self from Samantha at times..She didn't always want her younger sister to know that it was possible that she was going to be hurting this way in a year, or maybe less, but around her older sister Kara she was always able to be herself and show when she was hurting, and tell why. They were more than sisters, they were best friends.

What hurt Leigh the most was knowing that Isabella knew. She felt she should explain herself..Isabella knew she was hurt, she knew she was hurt enough to bawl her eyes out in public: the school cheer gym for that matter, where any stuck up cheerleader could have seen her, or even any coach that had wandered in. There was even a knowing look in her eyes that proved to Leigh that she was pretty sure that something had happened at home. Had Bella always had that look in her eyes? Had she seen the cuts that covered Leigh's wrists all last year, or the scars that still remained? Last year had Bella noticed the cuts on Leigh's face? What had she thought they were from? Did she know that they were self inflicted? Either way...Leigh wasn't sure she liked people knowing things were getting worse and worse at her house, even if they only thought they knew something had happened....Even though deep down she was releived that someone outside her house was about to find out a little bit about what was going on.

When Leigh finally managed to stop crying about fifteen minutes later, and when Bella stopped hugging her she knew it was time to tell what was going on. She had to tell her friend at least part of the horrible things that were happening to her right now, it wouldn't be fair not to..Not after Bella had been there for her today. When Bella looked her in the eyes Leigh found it hard not to look away, but she steadied her gaze enough to meet her comrad's and she finally said, "I don't understand anything anymore Bella...and I can't take it anymore.."

Her gaze moved from Bella to her purse that was about five feet away from her. She wished it was closer...There was a blade in there...she had a small pair of scissors in there from when she helped her mother sew the night before. They had broken in two and now there were two seperate blades......Perfect blades for cutting something...Or anything....

No, forget the scissor blades, you promised Kara you would never do that again..You promised Samantha...What would they think of you if you did that again? You said you'd never cut again after last time when Samantha found out and started crying. Do you want to make your little sister cry again? Do you want to hurt Kara like that? Do you want your parents to find out?...No, I didn't think so...